"Devine Romance” performed by: Phil Wickham
The fullness of Your grace is here with me
The richness of Your beauty’s all I see
The brightness of Your glory has arrived
In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied
For You I sing I dance
Rejoice in this divine romance
Lift my heart and my hands
To show my love, to show my love
A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You
Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life
In Your presence God I’m completely satisfied
I was listening to my Pandora station today at work when this song popped up. “…In your presence God I’m completely satisfied…” I had just put my head phones back on after venting to a friend all of my worries for my friends and offering her suggestions about how they could all fix their situations. My concern is all so righteous because I want the best for my friends and my family and want them to want the best for themselves-but eww! I don’t want to be THAT person. That “righteous worry” is really just self-righteousness and a deflector from me and my issues, no? Yes.
At Big Brothers Big Sisters we have a certain “type” of volunteer we refer to as the “prescriptive Big.” Their intentions are all pure and good, but their objective is to enter into a relationship with a child so they can FIX things and in this process better a child. Have I become this way with people around me? EWW! I don’t want to be the “prescriptive friend”!
The more relationships I enter into with others around me and the more my preexisting relationships deepen, I’ve begun to realize that my role in their life has little or nothing to do with fixing problems but everything to do with acting (listening, gifting, hugging, speaking, sharing, etc.) in love and in love alone.
Today after venting and worrying and spouting off I feel silly. My desire for now is to enter into the presence of my God and be completely satisfied-for me, my husband, my family and my friends. I choose now to love and let Him love through me-not with worry, but with LOVE. I can rest, completely satisfied knowing that His Grace is bigger than me and bigger than all situations I find myself and those I love currently in. Is this complete satisfaction some romanticized image only in my imagination? Nope. It is romantic to think of the Lover of my Soul caring for me and my life and filling me with a peace He knows I need-but it’s REAL!
3 comments:
I read this entry with interest. The description of "Prescription Big" can fit all over the spectrum of human experience. In my experience there are a lot of "prescription Christians",folks who do lots of good things for/with ulterior motives. Probably why God wants our hearts first and then let the actions flow. Thanks for the reminder.
Scott
This is so interesting. I know that "prescriptive Christians," "prescriptive friends," and others often have the very best intentions. We're humans, after all, and part of our humanity is distress over the hurt of another. It seems natural to want to fix it.
Recently I have noticed a couple of people in my life have mastered the art of seeming to be genuinely empathetic and respectful while actually judging the person they are trying to help. Not to mention how sanctimonious their intentions really seem upon further examination.
It's hard to know where the line is sometimes between being a prescriptive friend and a supportive, loving friend. Increasingly, I wonder how Jesus would answer these kinds of questions. I should probably pick up my Bible and find out.
Oops--that was me, not Brian (who was still logged in).
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